Foolin around in the library

HOLY CRAP!! People are playing video games in the Library! I'm so jealous! Why can't it be me?! Ah well...My sister is gone on a school trip for the week...the lucky stiff. Luckily I have some fun stuff to do this weekend to top her. <3 I finished my english paper in school today. Go me! Didn't think it would happen, but it did. Watch me fail...meh, I don't care. :) Geez, I have certainly become lazy these days.

Well, I've decided that I'm sick of not having a ride so I'm going to study for my permit this week...hopefully to pass the test next week. Let's see if that happens...At the very least I hope I can sign up for driving school with Jen. That should prove fun. ;)

Work tonight. I need money...

Later.

(Scatter brain posts are the BEST! <<33)
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    nothing

A Dedication to a selected few....

I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you

I could be fake
I could be stupid
You know I could be just like you

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

I could be cold
I could be ruthless
You know I could be just like you

I could be weak
I could be senseless
You know I could be just like you

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

On my own, cause I can’t take liven with you
I’m alone, so I won’t turn out like you
Want me to

You thought you were standing beside me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you
You thought you were there to guide me
You were only in my way
You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you

I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you
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    My mix (crisco selection)

Chemistry is fun...

A title that is part lie...and part truth. Chemistry itself is actually very boring. But the class...now that's another story. I have crazy people in that class, I tell you. But they're funny and they made me get out of that rainy day funk I was in this morning. So drinks all around! (Hee..that reminds me of spanish...wow. My classes...) Anyway, TGIF all! Finally, right? I don't know, but I'm just not liking October...it hasn't been that great for me. I think it's the fact that I got stressed out about a few things...but thankfully things are starting to look up. Besides the PSATs tomorrow morning, I'll be going to the movies this weekend! YAY! Not sure what I'll see yet though...And then I have the whole weekend to do nothing. Which I find glorious because I really want to just sleep and relax. (although I probably am going to do something and screw that all up. Damnit.) And then there's Halloween! :) I'm not sure what's going down, but I've been getting some pretty good options for that monday night.

Moving away from October...Mini has my calculator! THE THIEF! He was supposed to give it back this morning and he did not! ARGH! That boy...he better return it by monday morning or I'm going 007 on his ass and pulling a mission when he least expects it. *evil laugh* Well, I'm hungry and tired and almost out of time. The bell will be ringing in like 3 minutes and I'll be going back to Psyche class to draw and listen to Aladdin say subliminaly "take off your clothes." (D/A) Ta readers~
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    Jacquiqui

A case of the Mondays....

Ah, Office Space...such a stupid movie, and yet I used a line from it. <3 Anyway, things are starting to look up from last week. Finally, right? I've cut a few things out (or down) and now I'm starting to feel better about a lot, actually. I guess those sources spit out a lot of negativity that just brought me down. I had a fun weekend! I went to see Serenity with Jen and Shawn on friday. I think me and Jen had more fun at that movie than the movie provided...and WOW does that sound kinky! (lol) Alas, we still did not get to play Time Crisis...But someday we shall once more!! (Although I heard that she did with Shelly w/o me! *tear* Oh well, we still have Fright Fest!!) As for Saturday, I was out all day shopping with my mom and sister. And now I am broke once more...oh well. At least my work closed early so I didn't have to go. And on sunday I celebrated my dad's 50th in the freezing woods by eating a lot of not-so-good for me food with the my relatives. Good times...(Oh and sorry to anyone who tried to reach me this weekend! I was so busy...I have yet to still check my messages...Sorry loves! <3 )

As for school, things are actually looking up! I'm not doing as horribly as I thought. And on top of that I'm actually catching up on work! Woo-hoo! I even might finish the homework I was supposed to do this weekend for each of my classes! :) Wow, now that lunch is nearly over, I'm going to be surfing the net.

More later...

(Thank you for the comments <3)
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    Fall Out Boy

Not worth it...

I've been truly tired and worn out lately--and it's only the beginning of the year. I fear what the rest of 2005 will bring. I've been at the end of my chain lately and I don't have the engery for anything anymore. I'm barely studying and doing homework. Those activities are even more scarce than they once were. (Surprisingly)My school work is falling and I have just been utterly down for the longest time now. As for people...I feel as if they are just making me more worn out and bitter. I feel dejected and unappreciated. I don't know if this is the exhaustion talking, but it's almost as if I'm there for their convienence. And if it weren't for Jen, Sara, and Inessa...I don't think I'd get up at all some mornings. Thankfully there are the few that go out of their way to uplift people.

Even worse, my job is becoming demanding. It's just furthering my exhaustion and distraction. I have to work today--but I have to stay after for math. You know, if I get fired for not being able to make it, I don't care. It's not worth loosing myself over.

On the upside, I think I did well on a psyche test today. Woo-hoo! I needed that to bring up my B.
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    nothing

2:30 Cave Hermit

I can't believe it! I slept in until 2:30 pm today. 2:30!! This will certainly not be happing again!! ...I hope. My sister's friend is sleeping over our house tonight. She came home to a scary looking me.

I feel bad for her.

The snow is nearly all gone where I live. I wish the weather would make up its mind! This way it will not get my hopes up when I return from winter break. Return...that reminds me. I MUST do at least ONE piece of homework tonight. ONE!!! I think I'll make it spanish...just beacause I'd rather not use my thinking skills and finish English and History. (Or herstory)

Which is bad because those are the subjects that are in most need of finishing.

I'm beginning to think that my room will never be moved around now. :( But I can hope. 5 more days!! Tomorrow is archery. I hope I shoot well. Or at least I hope I don't shoot something other than the target. (That's always good.) Tonight american idol is on. I think that show gets redundant after a year.

I will be watching it tonight.

I haven't really been following it. My family has. I will ask them what has been going on. They will most likely not provide an understandable answer. Family time, gotta love it. :) Which reminds me. I get to go to a wolfpack game with them on saturday. Go pack! I haven't been to a hockey game in a while. I'm a bit rusty on the rules. (But I bet we all are seeing as the NFL season has been canceled. Money always causes problems...)

Well, off to go hang--be annoying around my sister. :) She loves me.
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    My dog's howling

Good bye quiet hello dog

Two entries in one day! I better slow down or I might cause Live Journal to crash! Well, as suspected, I did not get anything done. (I blame it all on procrastination...oh well, I have 6 days left. So begins the countdown!)

My Day:

Finish Catalyst (While petting my beloved cat Mya)
Go online (Type first entry and explore Laurie Halse Anderson's website)
Take shower
Eat Lunch
Watch movie
Look at homework (But do not do)
Go online (Nearly die of shock for getting a response from LHD.)
Dog comes home with mom

Ok, so I didn't get what I wanted done...but it was a pretty good day. Although technically it wasn't lunch that I had...it was a breakfast/lunch/dinner. Seeing as the first time I ate today was at four. Oh well, it was good. Grilled cheese and tomato soup. I don't want to brag, but I make one great grilled cheese and tomato soup. (Watch out emerald because "BAM!" here I come! :) ) I would have made something else, but our fridge smelt weird. I figured that couldn't be a good sign so I stuck with the slices of edible looking deli cheese and a can of Cambles in the pantry. The regular bread was moldy so I used hamburger buns.

I must tell my mom that we need to go shopping...and that we should put some goggles on to inspect the fridge.

My beagle abby came home from the kennel today. I love her to death, but it was kind of nice without her. Not that I don't like her barking and chewing of everything in sight...it's just nice to have some quite once in a while. (Especially since my sister was also away for the day. I was all by myself! Hail peace and quiet!) At least she might keep me motivated to be active tomorrow. I have no dance class, so I must do something productive! After this I think I might clean my room. We'll see how far that goes...

Oh and Chelsie:
Something is wrong with my answering machine. I did not get your messages. My dad is fixing it now. Maybe I'll get to hear them when he's done...I hope.
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    The sounds of my dog's barking

February Vacation a.k.a Do nothing week

Yes, the 21st. First day of my "do nothing" streak. Man have I been preparing to do this for quite a while. The sad thing is that I did recieve homework that I must complete. So I suppose I cannot perform my "nothing" to the fullest, as I had hoped. :( (I might also have to do some make up work...seeing as I am, in my standards, failing english...thank you progress reports for pointing that out.) And of course the weather men decided to make it snow for the first day of vacation. Where was this fluff when I was praying for it in the early hours (Or late, depending on how you classify 1 am...) of my school days? Those green screen pointers are out to get me, I just know it. (Either that or mother nature is angry at me for some unknown reason...she's probably angry that I have yet to fufill the typical teenage protocall and get a boyfriend....me and her both.)Good news, I actually had time to sit and read! This is what? The first in decades? And to my delight, it was a Laurie Halse Anderson book. (Catalyst-great. You should read it. *Hint hint*) And the good news just keeps rolling because I found out that her next book PROM comes out March 3rd, 2005. (Oh yeah, my birthday month!) I love her work. :) And I'll have to get that book as I go out to get my sister's birthday gift...seeing as it is the next day...which reminds me that I am currently out of cash. This could be a problem. (Especially since I had been yearning to get the first season of Ai Yori Aoishi...damn.)
Oh well, right now I sit at the computer unshowered, poor, boyfriendless, and unaccomplished of any work. Not quite the desired mix, but I hope to fix that soon enough. First step: Shower. The rest will follow, I hope....probably not in that order, but here's to wishing! Today (,after the shower of course,)I plan to move my room furniture around and tackle some spanish...maybe even some english. (despite the fact that I fear that class now...it wants me to speak. I'd rather draw. We do not get along.) But I doubt very much this will happen. Why? It's already 3:14 and I'm at the computer. My AIM and website searching addiction is bound to kick in soon. (Megan's right, I need to get motivated...or develope addiction patches for teenage entertainment. "Wear them and fight the dreaded disease of Procrastination!! $19.95!!" I would make a bundle...)I have the problem of having too much to do and too little time...this will equal disaster soon enough. I don't know what made me want to write in this today. Maybe I had alot on my mind...or maybe I realized that abandoning this for a semester wouldn't be too fun...The last time I wrote here was when I still was slacking off in Mr. Madar's Graphic Communication's class!! Needless to say I got an A in his class...(Do nothing=Good Grades...why can't all of my classes be so easy?) Ugh! Now I'm thinking about english again. All my other grades are As and Bs!! WHY EDUCATIONAL SYSTEM?! WHY?! English used to be my best class...Maybe my mind is shutting down from all the stress I have accumulated so far. No wonder I have 8 sick days...Oh well, off to fight my addiction!! Cheer me on!

P.s. I'm not sure if I'm quixotic today...but I like saying the word right now...so here we are. :)
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    The rhythm of my sister's footsteps

Hot guy in my pocket

Ok, I'm back again. Why? Well, I like to kill myself. Why not? So here I am procrastinating again. Don't you love me? Ugh. All that work!! I'm gonna go crazy now, one sec....*goes crazy then returns* Good news. My friend had a few convos today that made her feel better. That makes me feel better (a little). Another thing that makes me feel better was that apparently I was not the only one experiencing the "horrible day" that was yesterday. Not to be alone...feels good.

My day has been getting better though. I was able to join art club...sadly not stay, but I joined!! XD!! And, I got a 100 on a Graphic Communications test I had. Yay! And I got to stare mindlessly at the hot guy that randomly stands across from my bus for his ride. ^_^ I feel stalkerish. Speeking of hot guys, I shall explain my title!! I was ripping out ads for GC class and I found a picture of "Mr. August". (Yeah, it sounds really kinky...but he was in a girl's "trendy" magazine...not the adult ones some of you may be thinking of...) Well anyway, he was really hot so I tore him out and put him in my pocket. Then I forgot about him...until I took him out and I was like: "OMG!! There's a hot guy in my pocket." Yeah, so that was my semi-interesting story. Know it, love it, live it.

Yeah, so I changed my background and stuff. I couldn't help myself. I saw so many different icons and stuff...I had to... The background I've had for a while...but I put it up because a.) I love Tanemura's work!! b.)I just read a Tanemura original c.)um...there is no c.

The icon is of an anime I have yet to learn about called "Spiral". Looks interesting...

Oh!! That manga I just read is called Shinshi Doumei Cross. It's REALLY GOOD!!! It's another love story of course...but it's unrequitted...so yeah, Haine-chan becomes Shizumasa-kun's body guard and yeah. It's just great. Ack, Tanemura-sama never ceases to astound and amaze me. I worship her along with Clamp and Watase...(And a hell of a lot more...like Takeuchi, Yoshizumi, Tachikawa...etc.)

Manga has a soothing power over me. It easily sways my emotions. And I am sooo thankful for it. I want to do that. I want to give people the same joy I get in reading them...that is why I must fufill my dream to become a manga-ka. *strikes a victorious pose* MUAHAHAHAHAHA ::ayeka laugh::

::Ahem:: Yeah. So one of my friend's B-day parties is this weekend. I hope it's a good one where people have fun and act normal...but not so normal where we all kill each other...that would be bad. Ok, now to go eat and do my homework. I feel better now...and it will be ruined once I have to do homework...

OMG!! LMAO!! THE MOUSE IS HIGH!! *Joy* Ok, I'm good. HEY!! SMALLVILLE IS ON!!! *runs away*

"So give me novacane..."
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    Blvd. of Broken Dreams - Green Day

Wake me up when October ends

I finally put in a slip mentioning that I want to get out of Ms. Evil's class...a.k.a my spanish class. I pray that they'll be able to do something about it. I can't stand that lady. I pray Jess will forgive me if I can depart...I feel bad for leaving her alone with the devil...

Marking period ends friday. Shit. I hope that I don't find out that I have alot to do... But then again it will make the transition of a class easier if it's at the end of a marking period. I only pray I'm not failing anything. (I consider C's failing...that is why I feel I am screwed...seeing as I have been getting a few of those in a few selected classes.)

The art club meets today. Damnit!! I wanted to join. I'm going down there today to see if I could be a late entry...and go next week.

Yesterday was the shittyest day in my life...or close to it. I cried at least 3-4 times yesterday. Maybe I needed it. Who knows. Today is a tad better...but not that great all the same.

Yeah. The song is really called Wake me up when September ends. But I altered it for me. Woo!

So anyone, wake me up when October ends, k?
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    Wake me up when september ends